all you need is love, love

i have realized just how incredibly hard we can be on ourselves as humans. we dont believe we have the potential to be amazing or spectacular or anything greater than what we are. the worst thing that we can say is that:

"we are only human"

that is further from the truth than we can possibly get. we use it as an excuse to justify not reaching the highest heights and giving up on ourselves. we are children of God. it is so incredibly important to remember that every single day. i, like most people in the world, have been incredibly hard on myself throughout my life. if i am comparing my weaknesses with other people's strengths of course i am going to come out as the loser every time. the problem is, we fail to recognize the wonderful things that we can contribute to the world. positivity is probably what we lack most in this world. we focus on negative negative negative and it is driving me crazy. shouldn't we be treating each other with love and respect? shouldn't we be as (if not more) kind to our families as we are to perfect strangers? our life is meant to be a blessing to others, not a burden, and the longer we fail to recognize that, the worse off this beautiful world that we live in is going to be.

believe in yourself

love yourself

trust yourself

have faith in yourself

and for heaven's sake

be nice to yourself

name them one by one

i feel like listing the things that i am thankful for does not happen enough

it should happen at least once a day i think

sharing the things that you are thankful with other people

creates a feeling that ripples 

and spreads to the whole world 

so here is my drop in the water

things that i am thankful for

the most incredible family on the planet

the best friends i could possibly hope for

incredible roommates that keep me sane

byu-idaho

living in america

clothing

a roof over my head

eyes to see

ears to hear

a mouth to taste with

a nose to smell my grandmothers sunday dinners with

food to eat

the ability to learn

trials

the ability to hope and dream

a healthy body with which i can dance and sing and run etc...

the fact that i am weird

the love of the people i cherish the most

the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints

the beauty of the earth around me

the general goodness of people

smiles

the capacity for greater love

technology (specifically the apple kind :)

music

the ability to grow and learn from experiences

the Book of Mormon and the Bible

laughter

communication

holidays

the list could go on and on

with all of the terrible things going on in the world

it is so nice to focus on all of the good sometimes

in fact

we should focus on the good all of the time

dont you think?

there's a fire starting in my heart

 welp

i dont really know how im feeling about life right now

not that i am by any means depressed or anything

just that i have so many different emotions and thoughts just runnin around in my noggin

and its drivin me nuts

i have tried writing them down

but it dont work

gahhhhh

i guess the only thing to do is just see how things go

they will work out for the best

i am sure of it

for now im just gonna clear my mind

and just let life take its course

cause at this point

there aint a whole lot i can do

i go home in less than two weeks

how

bittersweet

i am quite scared right now because of a lack of employment

but

i trust in the Lord 

and i know He will take care of me 

cameron tells me im a genius

i refuse to believe it

maybe ill just tell him this from now on