ennui

apathetic

unmotivated

tired

drained

school has gosh darn worn me out!

its driving me nuts cause lately i have had zero energy

not cool

i need a job

i need to study for finals

i need to write my research paper

i need something to push me and to get me off of my lazy bum

quick

at least the semester is almost over

and i have met some pretty great people recently

who will make the seven weeks that i will be stuck here for much more bearable

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i think it is quite peculiar that when we are little all we want to be is a growned-up

but once we get all the responsibility that comes with it we realize how incredibly great we had it then

our biggest stressors were making sure we were inside by dark 

and getting to see our favorite saturday morning cartoons

sometimes i wish that we were like benjamin button

getting younger all the time

nevertheless

there is a beauty that comes with being able to take care of yourself and making things happen in your own life 

and not depending on anyone but yourself

of course we all need help in this life

but that beauty comes from knowing when you need that help

and

when you need to just buckle down and figure it out for yourself

life is

complicated and messy

beautiful and hideous

difficult and simple

fragile and robust

amazing